well its been a few days since i posted so i guess i should write something! things are going really good with me & robby. its like he is a totally differant man! i have started going to counseling for depression once a wk and its going really good. robby even agreed to go with me in the furture for a session or 2 :) peyton has started sitting up all by herself! she is getting so big. she is pushing herself up on her hands & knees & rocking back & forth too. i cant believe how fast these 8 months have flown by. garys 1st yr whent fast but not this fast. she is basically eating baby food all the time except bottles at nap & bedtime :) gary has started getting a little attitude & i do not like it. as funny as it is, its driving me crazy. last night at dinner i gave him milk to drink & i had soda. well he wanted soda & i told him no he needs to drink his milk first. he said  NO which is nothing new but then he pushed his cup away & his plate too. he has never done that b4. he is always saying no to me. he is deffinately in his terrible 2 stage. i am going to try to start potty training again soon i think. buying diapers for 2 is getting too expensive. plus he is 2 1/2 so its time to try again. he is learning how to count & repeats the cartoons when they are counting. he is getting so smart. he is growing into a young man right before my eyes & when i look at him it makes me sad b/c like the darrius rucker song, these yrs are flying by & he isnt going to be little for much longer. i have gone outside my comfort jone & i have hired a babysitter. she is 15 & that is what makes me nervous but my dad reminded me that i babysat that young & all i ever wanted was a chance to prove i could do it. so i am giving her a chance. im only concerned because many of u know that gary is a handful and im worried she wont beable to handle his fists when i leave but we will see. gary loves girls so im sure he will be ok & peyton just loves anyone.lol. we found out 2day we are going home on leave the 16th of july because robby has to be back for a first responders course on the 1st of august. i have my consultation appointment next tuesday with the plastic surgeon. i am excited but nervous at the same time. wel i better get back to house work :) thats all for now!

june 4, 2011

well today was interesting.. robby bought a ps3 yesterday even though i wanted a kinect but oh well. im sure ill play the ps3 too. robby leaves 2morrow and will be gone until tuesday. he will be in the field. im getting used to being alone but it doesnt get any easier. gary actually took a nap for me today. he crashed hard. and when he woke up he was ready to be crazy again! he was spinning around in the living room & ended up falling and hitting his head on the table so im sure he will wake up with a goose egg. but he didnt cry. he was shocked but then he started spinning again. he is so crazy. peyton pushed herself up on her hands & knees for the first time today! 1 step closer to crawling. she is starting to be a little piggy. which leads me to my complaining. we are on wic & our coupons expired yesterday from last month. well we whent to the store & i had everything on the belt thing ready to check out & the cashier says "these dont start until the 7th" so i was pissed. peyton was out of formula and almost out of baby food. i ended up going to the commisary & buying her enough to get until the 7th. the kids are getting so big so fast :( i was rocking peyton & he climbed up in the chair with us & wanted to hold peyton so i let him. i asked him if he was done and he said "no" so a few minutes later i said ok its time for sissy to go to bed. he agan said no. then i told him no gary ur not going to bed yet just sissy and he replied k.lol i love him so much. he is such a great big brother. i am so blessed to have such beautiful amazing kids. ive been missing my family a lot lately and i cannot wait to go home to visit in july. but part of me is dreading it. everytime we go home me & robby get into huge fights. i dont know why but we do. and we are finally getting back into a good place so im hoping this time will be differant.  i am so greatful though to have my army family. stephany is such a great friend and is always there when i need her. i miss kayla & heather a lot since they PCS'd to other places. i guess ive written enough. so good bye for now  :)

june 2nd 2011

im new to this blogging thing so please bare with me. gary and peyton ar doing great & getting so big i cant believe it. peyton started using a sippy cup today & is doing great! she has been sleeping great for the most part but last night she was up a lot during the night so im exhausted. gary has given up naps but hasnt been too crabby so its ok i guess that he skips nap time even though i would like my own time.lol. we bought gary a couple learning puzzles yesterday and he love them. he is so smart. he is growing into a handsome young man. robby is busy with work his eyes are finally better and he can see great out of both of them. we are all settled into our new house & loving it. the apartment wasnt bad but we got to cramped. we adopted a puppy a few days ago & named him bear. he is a lab mix and is all black. he is still a little shaky and shy but he is still adjusting. im missing home a lot lately. i have been having struggles with emotions and im finally starting to feel better but i know it wont go away over night. im not really sure what else to say so ill end it now.